KNIGHT OF SWORDS Reversed. This card is usually about the balance of power being in your favour. As the card is reversed the balance of power is not in your favour. In other words you don’t have the power in this situation. What I see in the card today is: You have become so used to fighting and fending off attacks that you see them every where, even when people are just trying to help you or even support you. You are struggling for control of every situation, even ones that you have to reasonable expectation of being able to control. This card is trying to get you to step it down a little. You cannot control everything; you are unable to always be the one in power. You need to accept this and deal with it.
If you don’t accept that there are some things you can control and others you cannot then you are going to spend your whole life trying to control the uncontrollable and never do anything else. It will actually become a neurosis; a need to control every aspect of your life and eventually it will come to control you, not the other way around. Deal with it now. Accept that you are not omnipotent; things happen in life that you cannot plan for or control. Learn to deal with and resolve the things you cannot control. You don’t need to be in power for everything, it is to exhausting trying to control everything and there is no time to enjoy anything.
Today you are starting to be seen as a control freak, that nothing will ever make you happy. People are not going to want to be around someone like this, you will start loosing what support you currently have. People will just see that you are fighting for control again, and will not be able to see when you are actually fighting for something important. Your battles will be lost before you even start if you don’t make some changes now.
Learn to pick your battles, don’t fight to just win or be in control, only fight for what is actually important to you. That way you actually have some energy and time to fight for what is important to you, and you might actually win. However you need to learn when to accept defeat and move on. Stop trying to fight battles that are already won or lost. You have lost sight of what the fight is about; all you care about is winning, having control or power. What is the point of getting something you don’t even want just to win?