THE DEVIL. This card is about not letting your own negativity hold you back. Enter into the swing of things a bit more. What I see in the card today is: You had a sucky childhood and have difficulty relating to your own (an others) children. You resent having to spend any time and effort with them and yet you actually do love your children. You need to figure out some way to deal with this so that you can spend positive time with your kids. At this point you do whatever you can to not spend real time with them. You find things to work on; you are out of the home as much as possible. When you do have to spend time with them, such as watch them, you spend your time with a book or the TV and let them play by themselves. Things are OK as long as they don’t bother you. When you have to spend quality time your resentment shows up in anger over little things, and you blow them out of proportion and then punish the kids by taking away things and putting them in their rooms. That way you don’t have to spend time with them, but you made the effort, it was really their fault; when all the time it was you finding a way out of spending time with them. You need to figure this out before they hate you. As it is they are scared of you and that is not what you really want. Find out why you are uncomfortable with your children and what it is you really resent and deal with that, don’t make your kids pay for your issues.
